%title The tools that make us
:writing:blog:
%date 2021-11-16 22:44

Having now spent the better part of a month without a smartphone I've spent a lot of time reeling from the way [[200927-0111|life changes without having one]]. About how the tools we build shape us as well. At first it was difficult, there was an itch I could no longer scratch all the time (scrolling endlessly) that I certainly had grown addicted too despite trying my hardest to not use addictive platforms. It made bathrooms a much quieter affair. But there were other things that I also lost. I could no longer search for the random things that come up all the time, and would often forget them by the time I did reach a computer. I had to remember all my meetings which sucks even though I'm medicated for my ADHD now. I couldn't remember my task list. Perhaps the most subtle of all, is the difference in subjectivity. I have begun to feel like a different person, nearly. There were subtle behavioural patterns that were broken. I can't quite explain it.
