Can't sleep again so i'm back here once more to make my thoughts known. I spoke to Parul again today. I think it was a bad idea, because whenever we talk, we talk for like 2 hours straight, mostly baout nothing. I can't help but notice how easy the conversation is, how much I enjoy talking with her even about the most mundane of things. Today, she fell asleep talking to me (nearly), and I couldn't help but notice how comfortable it all felt. I suppose that's what happens when you've been friends for a long time.
I nhate it. Torn between what I know to be false and wrong and fantasies I can't help but enact.